Y .Monday, August 15, 2005.
Okay... so it's been a long time since I updated this blog [like anyone's interested to read this crap].
Anyway, I have been thinking a lot lately... about many things... school, my social life, my online life and my seemingly growing online relationship. Imma enumerate things then ['cause these things are 100% trash, and I'll be talking trash, seriously].
School
College life is not as good as I thought it would be. Yeah, I have tasted a bit of independence since I graduated high school, met a lot of freaky people and mingled with them [sucks, but I learned a lot from them]. But as days passed, I realized that College is not only about meeting other people, it's also about learning the things in the outside world. It's not only about the books, but it is more based on the professors who forced us to read them, and the system of teaching they want out brains to press on. Departamental Method of teaching... professors are supposed to follow the guidelines their Department gives them. No complaints whatsoever. Disgusting. I even remember an Asian Civilization professor leave the university because of what he thinks of "amateur method of teaching." And I agree with the guy. The university's way of instruction is veeerrry traditional. Know the Dominican professors during Rizal's time. That's them. Bless them, sole survivors of the rotten way of preaching. Money-grabbers.
Social Life
And so, I'm about to detach myself from my social life. With the tremendously amount of homework given to us, as well as to my online career, I rarely have time to go to social gatherings. I missed two parties, and arrived late and left early on the last one. I have no time to go to malls. My barkada misses me a lot now. Only my present classmates get the most out of me. And I dumped a suitor because of certain reasons. There are still two in the line, and I don't know what to say to them. Any student of Venus, please do help me. I'm in a state of deep dilemma.
Online
This is one of the reasons why I behave "oddly" recently. You do know I'm an online gamer, and I'm in a state of leaving RO for another MMORPG. However, I'm still attached to the game I'm playing right now. I haven't achieved my goal yet, and the temptations of the biggest patch pulls me closer to the game. But, as a new game comes to its release, I am somehow tempted to try it as well. I tried playing two MMORPG's at the same time. The result: complete bullshit. I can't concentrate on the other game. I still played RO in spite of the joys ROSE Online gave to me. And now, another game is about to come up, and I don't know if I will quit RO just for that.I ask advice from Athena because of this. Gotta ask Valkyrie as well.
OL Relationship
This is the very first time I'm writing something about OL relationships. I seriously don't approve of them before, because they don't really work. How can you fall for someone who don't see personally? I have a couple of suitors online [I won't mention their names for everyone's sake... it'll be chaotic, trust me] and one of them is about to convince me that I am wrong with my opinions. However, I am still hesitant. Why? I'm still afraid to get hurt again. In tagalog: "sobra-sobra akong magmahal, sa sobrang labis, nadadala ako sa puntong nagpapakatanga ako." Again, I seek help from the Divine Gods; "ayoko ng magpaloko ulit..."
I'll end this with a line from a song, which I really liked ever since I heard it: "When you tell me that you love me, know for sure. I don't wanna be lonely anymore."
Closed.
